Boys and Angels

So for my second post I was thinking I'd talk about the picture in my header. This is my favourite pic that I've ever found on the Internet. I found it several years ago on quizilla.com. I can't remember what the quiz was exactly, it was either what kind of angel are you or what kind of personality do u have.

At any rate this pic was for the "Mellow" result. I didn't actually get that result but I had the option of seeing them all and when I saw the pic I instantly fell in love with it. Of course this was during grade 10 or 11, maybe even 12, but at any rate I was still quite the closet case. To see this picture of two obviously male characters in such an intimate pose was amazing to see.

It was a scary time when I was afraid of being open about who I was. Sure I was out to some people that I trusted but it felt like it would be the end of the world if any random stranger found out I was gay.

I secreted this pic away onto my memory stick. It was, and still is, sacred and beautiful to me and became an inspiration in quite a few of my random writings. I guess I hope to be part of this picture someday. I often look at it and contemplate my place in it.

I sometimes envision myself as the boy with the silver hair. Having someone to hold me close and watch over me. Sometimes I picture myself as the green haired angel. To be the quiet protector holding my loved one close. It's just full of meaning for me and represents a dream that I'm actively working towards.

I guess that's all I have to say for now. Thx for listening. Type to you later.